Write a list of 10 things that are sure to put a smile on your face when you are not happy.
Dear Shaun T,
Today is officially my last day of the Insanity 63-Day Challenge. The weeks have swiftly passed as my body has slowly transformed. I was hopeful for change, yet expected little. I stayed cautiously optimistic, but remained realistic about the results I would actually have.
Who knew that I would become the testimony that motivated me to start? What was it that made the difference? How was I able to have the success I did?
Being "in it" did not make me happy. I often cursed the TV when you would make me do those dreaded Power Jumps for one full minute. You made me so furious when you would take a break but would expect me to keep digging deep. I was not amused by your "it's not a coffee break" comment when I was allowed a mere 30-second recovery.
You did not make me happy Shaun T when you made me do all those crazy push-ups and the running floor drills, or diamond jumps. I wanted to punch you in the face sometimes, but alas...I had no more energy. In fact, you made me cry a couple times after completing the last interval of Max Interval Circuit. You completely broke me. Sometimes I wish I could have dunked your head in my pool of sweat and tears.
But then I would finish. I had all this energy. I started to realize that you weren't trying to make me unhappy, you were making me better. Like Kanye says..."N- n- now th- that don't kill me, can only make me stronger!"
For all that pain I endured for holding a plie squat for five minutes, the anger I felt every time you stared right into my eyes and said, "You Can Do It", and the dread I experienced when I popped in that DVD, I am so grateful for even more.
Today I'm smiling not because I completed the challenge, but because you made want to complete another round. I realize without you pushing me and making me so incredibly unhappy sometimes, I wouldn't be able to experience:
- the confidence to pursue my dream to motivate others
- the satisfaction of setting a goal and achieving it...successfully
- the joy of fitting into everything in my closet
- the pleasure of running again in a sports bra sans the **rollage
- the passion for my own health and well-being
- the love for really healthy food
- the tenacity to push myself a little more each day
- the commitment to journal every meal, snack and handful I've eaten in the past two months
- the dedication to lead by example
- the willingness to become humbled
p.s. I'll be sending my before and after pics soon!